As I sat on my bed sorting all of watches I collected (81 to be exact) for Mali and trying to fit 100lbs of stuff into two (rather small)bags i began to realize I am really leaving for Africa in less than 24 hours.
There are so many different emotions going through my head right now. I am so incredibly excited to see what God has in store for me and if this is where he is calling me for full time ministry. I am so excited to learn more about medical missions and to help deliver babies! I am so excited to just love on the little children and Malian people. The joy is definitely there, but along with the joy comes fear. I know that I will be leaving my family tomorrow for 3 weeks, missing all of our traditional Christmas activities. I know the goodbye is not going to be easy and I know that I will cry a lot tomorrow. As hard as this goodbye is and as strong as the fear is, it just reminds me that I serve a good God and I will not be alone. This fear is even good because it reminds me of how I am in complete surrender to my Savior who has this all under control. Sometimes I feel like I'm in way over my head, I feel so inadequate to do this work, because I am inadequate when I try to do it alone. I am only a weak vessel serving a powerful God and this is the call that He has put on my heart, therefore he will provide everything I need to do his work.
I am so ready for this adventure to begin.
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