How do you say that in French?

( A note before I begin, my spell checker is not working, and if you know me this is tragic, so I apologize in advance...I will do my best :) )

So being here I have learned how much communication matters. I can't even express to you how much I wish that I could speak French. I have learned a few things about myself while being here and one of those things is how much I love to talk. One of my favorite things to do is sit down with someone and just talk about life, I love to hear about other people lives and I love to have good conversations. I'm not sure what I was exepecting when I came here because I knew I wouldn't be able to communicate but I guess I never realized how much it would hurt. All I want to do is sit down with these people and love on them by talking with them, but all i can do is smile(which I know goes along way too). I find it so funny that God knows what he is doing and that we think we know what he is doing as well....but he are completely wrong. To be honest I thought then when God called me to come out here, He was calling me here to show me that this is where he wanted me, or to confirm my call to missions once again. I just laugh at this thought now. God called me here not necessarily to help the people here, but to help myself. I'm so stubborn! I've learned more about myself in three weeks then I have in 21 years. Sure I've learned some great things medically and I've had some great experiences, but I've also had some very trying times.

I'm not saying that I think God is calling me out of missions, because I can't make that judgement call right now, but I'm not completely sure that that's not the case either.I've learned to wait on him and in time, he will show me my path.If it's on the missions field, then he will give me the strength to be away from family and the comforts of home(plus I would learn the language before coming :)), but if its in the US then I could serve him just as well, as long as I'm in his will. God has shown me a few things about myself over this trip: I love to communicate(Yes, I do love to talk!!), I love holding newborn babies and have a true passion for them : ),I love the medical field(yeah for helping others)and I can do anything with his strength. As cliche as the last one sounds its so true. Living in the US we are all about convinence. I honestly don't know how many times i can say that I've had to fully depend on God's strength(which is kinda shameful I know), but here i have nothing left and all I can do is lean on him. Where God will lead me with these things I'm not sure, but I know that I'm willing to do whatever he asks. It's been a true frustration to be here and feel like I'm not a help at all. I want to serve God with all I have, but I've learned that sometimes that just means traveling thousands of miles away to a situation way out of my comfort zone that breaks me down so much that I have no choice but to listen to his voice. We've had some great Daddy daughter time, and I'm truly learning so much from him. I'm so excited to go home and see where he leads me! I thank you all so much for your prayers and for your patience with me. I praise him that I can boast in my weakness, because through my weakness he is being made soooo strong!