Mustard Seeds

Mustard Seed...that has become my new nickname. Disappointment has hit. I'm on the waitlist for Vanderbilt. My dream that I always wanted is now hanging on to a thread and out of my control.This means that I will only get in if someone declines the job. Goodbye Nashville, Hello Norwalk. The first day I found out I was not ok. I was angry at God. I want things my way because I seem to think that I know what's best for my life. I wanted to move to Nashville. I wanted to live with Meg. This is not fair. So what about the mustard seed?
"He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:20

My faith has not been like a mustard seed. I have been so doubtful of what God can do. I wanted to sit and mope about my loss, but then God made me realize this is not the end of the world. I am being so selfish. He is the ALMIGHTY GOD and I am doubting Him? I have life, I can breathe, I have an incredible family, this is nothing close to the end of the world. I'm beginning to realize what a blessing it is to be at the will of God. He has total control over my life at this point in time and the more I think about it the more excited I become. He knows the big picture and He will be faithful no matter where I end up. I've decided to take that faith of a mustard seed. I want to be totally dependent on Christ alone and I know that He will pull through, even if that means no Nashville. I serve a might God and I am excited to see where He takes me from here!